The first semester break comes to the end...

I'm here, UTP. Going to have my second semester very soon, the day after tomorrow. Flashing back to the period of my first semester, I have to admit that I have done nothing. Paying no effort in study and the most important thing: lost my way! It's time for me to accept thoroughly, the environment, the culture, whatever things I encounter here. I have to move past, maybe GOD want me to undergo a different experience? I don't know...I just know that there's no more time to be wasted.

Thank you friends :-)

I'm being quarantined at this moment :( It's toO bad for me since I have many tests to sit for this week especially the irreplaceable lab test tomorrow! However, with the blessing of GOD and most of my friends, I might be discharged if nothing goes wrong with me tomorrow since my body temperature already dropped to 26.9 degree. Thanks GOD! I might be able to take the lab test in time if not I have to repeat the WHOLE semester!

Speak of my friends, I wanna show my appreciation here to my friends in UTP especially to the drama queen-sock lam and the sarawakian princess- siu lee! They've been very helpful since I got sick. Before I'm being quarantined, they took care of me like a mother (HAHAHA :D) and visited me yesterday although I'm being quarantined! They was taking the risk of getting the H1N1 from me! (HAHAHA XD) Being such a caring person, they bought me some breads, apples, biscuits,which are definitely good for sick people like me ^^ Thanks friends!

Look at the bright side, this "quarantined experience" isn't too bad, at least, I can take some rest and know that there still has somebody in UTP concerns about me...=D

Famine 30 (2009)

Last weekend, I participated the DIY Famine 30 camp in UTP and went to Bukit Jalil for countdown section with some of my seniors in UTP. I think the last 2 years Famine 30 camp I went was more touching compared to this year. Maybe it's because there was just 6 hours countdown section at Bukit Jalil only. Nonetheless, my main purpose to there wasn't just enjoying the "concert" which performed by various artists. I always believe that I have the power to make a difference which was also the theme of the Famine 30 camp this year. Somehow, I seemed like forgot my vision during past few months. I forgot that I wanna help them, the poor. If I were a civil enginer, I would build them a house, make their neighborhood's infrastructure better! But what could I do if I were a electrical and electronic enginer? I'm still wondering about that because I still don't know much about E&E.

I had a bustle and hustle life during the past few months, still, I busied for nothing. Aimlessly, I passed my precious 3 months life time! My spirit was gone, my vision was gone, I was gone...
That's 1 of the reason why I insisted to go to Famine 30 at Bukit Jalil this year even though there will be many tests for me to sit after the camp and the risk of getting H1N1.

Living in UTP is not easy for me. There is not much activites for Chinese here. I mean, there is not much Chinese-style societies here and the Chinese seniors here are quite inactive, for my opinion. Besides going to shopping or yamcha, their past time is sleeping. I'm totally sick of that because that 's entirely out of my expectation! I thought that I can join many clubs here just like I did during my high school time! I'm desperately disappointed! :-(

I think I might become a nerd just like they are... X(

My entertainment here X(

Last time I HAVE TO loitered around campus with UTP's friends, this was the best scene to take a shot! Really OMG! The point is, not because of it's a mosque, is because of we have nothing to do here besides studying, facebooking and blogging...so we was bored until we have to take a walk around that mosque! (Although It's quite beautiful) But can you imagine how is my life here? I'm totally frustrated! It's like my life have no meaning besides study! Shoudn't U's life be enjoyable, fun, interesting, thrilling? I am having a monotonous and SUPER dump life that I've ever had! You know what, senior here told me that they shared the common hobby here: sleeping! WTH! I wanna join activities! I mean not so Malay-style activity ok? Or the pasar malam-like convo fair! I think I'll be bored to death if my life persist throughout 5 years like that! What I ought to do to make my life here better? It's a nerve-racking question...

Live amongst Malays

Am I a "Malay Phobic"? Haha! Of course, I'm not afraid of them! I was just not used to live along with them. Although my secondary school is not a chinese school, but I hadn't mixed with Malays during my school time, so that was the first reason I refused to go to this university in the beginning. However, being a person that loves to take challenges, I decided to accept this after my second thought. So that's why I was inside the picture above! That was the first time I wear Baju Kebaya and actually I hadn't even heard of it before!

Frankly speaking, some of theirs good attributes, in fact, overcome the prejudice of mine. It's really the time for me to be a real open-minded person. No judgement, perception or assumption toward something that you're not really comprehand. It's my practical application now instead of the idealogical theory that I infered before. Having a different perspective insight, is the capacity I've been pursuing of. Now I'm given the opportunity to learn, and, of course I'm willing to! :)

A surreal reality that I have to live through

I cannot forget how I find myself in this place. That indescribable moment to make a decision -to go or not to go? That unforgetten expression of my good friend, after my hurry goodbye. That preposterous moment of stepping upon this land, the land of my university-UTP. This moments are vividly replaying in my brain memories card.

It's almost 2 month, I find myself still survive in this place! Haha! I am certain that I would be beaten by some of friends if they visited my blog here. Because at least I get what I want- the engineering course. "You're the lucky one", somehow I didn't deny this statement as I found myself are not prepared for studying abroad. Maybe, God sent me here so that I can accustom myself to this new way of life. It IS a new way of life for me-it's not the independence that I have to learn nor the spicy Malay food that I ought to get used to it, it's the friend problem of course!

Til now, I only found out that there is a disadvantage to have a very first best friend! Haha! But seriously, I did face the difficult to live on without my best friend whom I spent my childhood and adolescence with. She is the special gift for me from GOD-the one that can communicate with my soul, the one who knows what I'm going to say with my facial expression...
Retrospecting what I've been through with her always ended with sweet smile of mine.

It was happening abruptly and so unexpected. I had to leave all my friends without farewell or saying goodbye, it indeed upset me so much, but it flavored the reunion with them- although not all of them since my semester break time was limited. Friendship, the thing I seldom spent time to contemplate before as it happened so natural to me. From now on, I have to work it out, starting from zero. But I believe it won't too hard for me as I'll never give up trying. That's why I am still alive...hahaha! :D